Sweet my child.........

I looked up and looked directly into the eyes of the genius whose face was serious and tensed. I could see the reflection of what he was doing in the glasses he wore and what I saw there horrified me. I was chilled to the bones. This can't be happening, I thought in panic. But there was nothing I could do to stop it. ''What would he say if he knew that I could see?'' I wondered. He probably wouldn't care. I looked for half a minute and closed my eyes shut never to open again. Not as long as I could see what I saw...

''Divya!! Open your eyes!!'' he said, ''and ''look!!!!" Just then I was slowly drifting to a deep, dreamless sleep and in my mind was the vivid image of the blood oozing out of my body as he cut up my utreus- the glimpse of which I caught in his glasses.

''IT'S A BOY!!!! '' and he was dangling my son upside-down. Cesearian was over. The tiny little thing was just scooped up from inside my womb was now bawling at the top of his lungs as though he liked it better in there and did not like being brought to this world! Well, No words in any language can explain what I felt at the moment. I do not even try. It was ecstatic. It was ethereal. My son was born!

''Did you show him to my husband?'' I asked and before I fainted I heard a distant voice of some faceless nurse assuring, ''yes, he is very happy and is concerned about you.''

When I opened my eyes again I was shifted to the ward and there were atleast 10-15 people surrounding my bed. All examining the little fellow and trying to decide whether he looked like his dad or mom. I looked at my flat, wrinkled tummy. My bump was gone! It felt strange and empty, I could not feel the kick I was so accustomed to.

I tried to reach out for my son and screamed as a sharp pain went through my body like electric shock. I could not move an inch of my body. My husband heard me and brought the tiny fellow to me.

I looked at my son. His tiny face, those tiny hands, ears like shells... Eyes wet, emotions overwhelmed, I kissed his tiny feet and whispered in his ears, ''I Love You"